I need an adventure buddy. A friend to get through this whole life thing with. So far the journey has been far from easy. I thought my life was going to take a drastically different path, I'm sure most people could say the same thing. Every aspect of my life has turned into "playing it safe". I do everything to not upset my disease ridden body, and it's getting old. I love hiking, I love being outside, I love swimming, I love bike riding. I love doing a lot of things that this body hates. I'm always afraid to take the risk, because I'm alone so I'm the only person I can rely on. If things go sideways how am I going to pay the bills and get my meds? It's extra scary when you're sick. I wish so much that I had a friend, a partner, to navigate things with. Someone to push me to take the risk, be my adventure buddy. Someone who won't mind to be there for the possible fallout, the sick days that will follow. I have a travel bucket list that I'm afraid I'll never see through. I'm so sick of feeling like in order to be alive I'm not living. I'd really rather die next week doing something fun than spend another minute stuck in this apartment alone with my two cats. I don't want to play it safe anymore. I want to live.
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